Monday, October 29, 2007

MIA

So I've been missing in action from this blog for almost a week! That's unheard of! No worries though, I haven't fallen off the wagon, I've just been busy!

I know that I probably write about this every week before weigh-in, but I'm worried that my work isn't going to show on the scale this week. I have stayed w/in my points all week, but haven't eaten the *best* foods that I could have. I have gone to the gym twice since my last WI, and plan to go tonight. I also went hiking both days this weekend while letterboxing. I just fear that because I had such a big loss the past two weeks (10 pounds total), that this week my body is gonna say "hold up, not so fast!"

At my last WI, I was 301.8, which means to see a "2" in front of my weight, I'd have to lose 2 pounds this week. I just don't think I did. Does anyone else's bodies seem to be behind sometimes? What I mean is that the week before & the week during my period, when I *feel* bloated, it doesn't show that bloat on the scale... but the week AFTER my period, when I feel fine, it seems like *that* is the week I don't show much of a loss on the scale. Same if I have a bad week... that week's WI will be fine, but the following week's will have slowed progress.

So anyway, I am nervous. I'm nervous of not seeing the 200s next week, and I'm worried I will see them. Yes, that sounds crazy. All week when I've weighed, I haven't been out of the 300s, I've actually been UP a couple pounds here and there. So that's why I'm worried about not seeing the 200s. The reason I am worried is that I haven't been there in probably a year, and it's scary. I don't EVER want to see the 300s again, but in the back of my mind I think about how awful it would be if I made it to the 200s, and then had a gain that put me back over the 300 mark. It'd be that same battle to get to the next century all over again.

Yes, I am being whiny.

Regardless of what the scale says, I can take pride in knowing that I am living so much better than I was a couple months ago. My clothes are looser, I can fit into the clothes that at one point were too small, and I took my measurements the other day & was floored by how many inches I've lost. So, I guess sometimes you just gotta keep on truckin'!

7 comments:

Trisaratops said...

Oh my gosh - you sound just like me! I always feel like I have to let the world know my explanation for not making a loss one week. But don't you love the difference between the "old" Teale and the new one who is aware of her choices, and makes better ones the next day? I love that about myself now. That is the biggest change. And my body totally goes through cycles of losing. I'll lose for 2 or 3 weeks, and then maintain or go up a little for 2 or 3 weeks. it is maddening, but I'm trying to get used to it. Have a good week!

Diana Swallow said...

You are doing a phenomenal job! I'm just glad to see you posting again! Just think, you'll start 2008 with a 2 in front of your weight! How awesome is that?

Gibbons-Camp said...

Wow, so close to that 300 mark... way to go! And just remember that it will happen for you, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow... but certainly by the end of the year. And I am confident you'll never have to see a 3 at the beginning of your scale ever again.

Jennifer said...

I am so glad you are back on the blog. You are such an inspiration to me. Keep up the good work and don't worry about what the scale says. You know you are on top of your weight and doing something about it. I know you will break the 300 wall down!

Princess Dieter aka Mir said...

Even with my mess-ups, I do feel a great sense of Mission and Pride. Yep. I do.

And I hope you break into the 200's this week. YAY!!!

I'm so looking forward to breaking into the 260's. Ahhhh...

The Princess

Heather said...

yea! I am so glad you posted.

I think we all worry that one day our weight loss will just slow like that. Too much of a good thing eh? But I think you have nothing to worry about. just ride it until the very end. And even if it does slow, its still losing. hell some weeks I lose .2 or .4 and yes it takes longer, but Im getting there.

Whether or not you get where you want to be this week, you are doing a fantastic job and you will get there, maybe tomorrow or maybe next week, but you will.

Chubby Chick said...

You are doing great so far! Just look at all of your NSV's!!! It really is important to realize that progress can be measured in many ways besides the scale. I'm sure you'll be into the 290's soon... and the 300's will be a thing of the past before you know it. That is definitely a day that I am looking forward to!!! And we WILL get there! And then it's on to ONE-derland! Woo hoo!