The Ugly Truth

The truth is this-I am at my all-time heaviest weight... I wouldn't even know what this weight was, were it not for the scale at the doctor's office. Ignorance is bliss, I suppose. You see, my scale at home measures up to an astounding 330 lbs. Which should be heavy enough to way your average 26 year old woman. But not this one. I've known that I was over the weight limit for some time now... you get a big flashing ERROR when you're over the limit & you try to weigh on it.

Thing is, they don't tell you how BIG of an error you are. Oh, but the doctor's office does.

345.6

I dreaded mid-December because that was when I had to go to the gyno for my yearly check up. I didn't dread it because I would have to derobe & sit with a sheet that barely covered my large body... I dreaded it because I knew I'd have to face the ugly truth. All 345.6 pounds of it.

So, back to day one again, right? Right. This week was the week that I attempted to make some changes. And I have made changes. Am I eating like a completely healthy person, no. But I am eating WAY better than the 345.6 pound person I had become. I've stuck with my resolution to eat breakfast out one time per week (today) and only eat out 2 other times per week, dinner with my husband. We've gone once, and we're saving the other for our weekly date night tomorow. I'm doing better. It'll take some time to get the entire healthy lifestyle back in full swing, but I am doing better.

I've been tracking my food as best as I can on fit day. It's nice because I could put in my weight, my goal weight, and how long I wanted to accomplish that in, and it tells me how many calories to cut back per day. I said I wanted to lose 50 pounds this year. That's less than a pound per week. And considering I'd have to eat about 3400 calories a day to maintain my weight (astonishing to know I was eating that much), fit day tells me I only need to cut back 400 cals per day to lose 50 pounds in one year. When you put it that way, it seems so simple! I've been doing much better than that... averaging about 1800-2200 calories. What's unfortunate though, is that due to the fact that I have a scale that calls me names when I get on it, I can't monitor my weight loss progress at this point. I know I could take measurements and evaluate progress that way, and I may, but I'm not sure at this point. My goal is to be able to use the scale by March. so that's 15 pounds to lose by then. At which time it will stop shouting ERROR, ERROR when my booty gets on it! OK it doesn't really shout, but caps=shouting!

So, that's that. And here we are.