Friday, January 8, 2010

The Ugly Truth

The truth is this-I am at my all-time heaviest weight... I wouldn't even know what this weight was, were it not for the scale at the doctor's office. Ignorance is bliss, I suppose. You see, my scale at home measures up to an astounding 330 lbs. Which should be heavy enough to way your average 26 year old woman. But not this one. I've known that I was over the weight limit for some time now... you get a big flashing ERROR when you're over the limit & you try to weigh on it.

Thing is, they don't tell you how BIG of an error you are. Oh, but the doctor's office does.


I dreaded mid-December because that was when I had to go to the gyno for my yearly check up. I didn't dread it because I would have to derobe & sit with a sheet that barely covered my large body... I dreaded it because I knew I'd have to face the ugly truth. All 345.6 pounds of it.

So, back to day one again, right? Right. This week was the week that I attempted to make some changes. And I have made changes. Am I eating like a completely healthy person, no. But I am eating WAY better than the 345.6 pound person I had become. I've stuck with my resolution to eat breakfast out one time per week (today) and only eat out 2 other times per week, dinner with my husband. We've gone once, and we're saving the other for our weekly date night tomorow. I'm doing better. It'll take some time to get the entire healthy lifestyle back in full swing, but I am doing better.

I've been tracking my food as best as I can on fit day. It's nice because I could put in my weight, my goal weight, and how long I wanted to accomplish that in, and it tells me how many calories to cut back per day. I said I wanted to lose 50 pounds this year. That's less than a pound per week. And considering I'd have to eat about 3400 calories a day to maintain my weight (astonishing to know I was eating that much), fit day tells me I only need to cut back 400 cals per day to lose 50 pounds in one year. When you put it that way, it seems so simple! I've been doing much better than that... averaging about 1800-2200 calories. What's unfortunate though, is that due to the fact that I have a scale that calls me names when I get on it, I can't monitor my weight loss progress at this point. I know I could take measurements and evaluate progress that way, and I may, but I'm not sure at this point. My goal is to be able to use the scale by March. so that's 15 pounds to lose by then. At which time it will stop shouting ERROR, ERROR when my booty gets on it! OK it doesn't really shout, but caps=shouting!

So, that's that. And here we are.


Chubby Chick said...

Wow! That really is eerie that you wrote this today! It is SO similar to what I posted this morning! lol

Just know that there is hope! I had been on a rollercoaster with my weight since the start of my blog... and it took weighing 400 pounds to finally get me back on track. I haven't been perfect these past 11 months... but I haven't quit. And THAT is what has helped me to lose almost 70 pounds so far.

I have full confidence that you are going to reach every weight loss goal that you set for yourself. I KNOW you can do it! Just never, ever give up. Just take it one day at a time and do the best that you can each day... and the "ERR" on the scale will be a thing of the past.

2010 is going to be a great year for us, Teale! I just know it! :)

Heather said...

Its funny that chubby chick already commented, because your post reminds me of where she was at least year when she started out, and its been amazing watching her get to where she is at now. She saw Error for a long time, before she finally could weigh herself on her scale. So have hope that you will get there and that you can do it too. Its hard, and sometimes you will struggle, but just keep moving towards your goal and you will get there. you still have a lot of support out here in blogland, so dont be afraid to post about your accomplishments or mistakes. A lot of people have great suggestions or just help provide some good support that sometimes is really hard to find.

Stacy Light Mygatt said...

Congrats on your first week!
Where are you posting/logging at? I usually do oh, crikey, it's been so long I forgot what it was called! ha