Tuesday, October 30, 2007
We're all going to have our weeks where we gain. Sometimes it's because we were off track... and sometimes our bodies are just saying "hold up there!". I had two weeks that totalled a very big loss... 10 pounds in 2 weeks is NOT natural, so having this 2.2 pound gain slows my progress a little, but it aids me in the whole "healthy weightloss" thing.
I will admit that I had a bad night tonight food-wise. This is the first night since joining WW in August that I've had a night where I let the food control me. I knew I had 35 flex points to use or lose tonight, since my points start over on Wednesdays.... and use them I did. I think it's a horrible excuse for a binge to say "Oh, but I had the points", so I'm certainly not making any excuses. I own up to what I did. We ordered pizza. And eat pizza I did. I believe in indulging responsibly, so I can usually have 2 pieces of thin crust & be totally satisfied. But tonight was another story. We got regular crust, and I hate 3 pieces. And 3 breadsticks. It was a bad decision, and I definately did let my emotions get the better of me. I figured "oh, well you had a gain today, and you have the points, what difference is it going to make?"
So, I'm heading to bed, and tomorrow will be a day full of good decisions. I wouldn't be normal if I didn't face the same setbacks as everyone else. You just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other, at a slow & steady pace, cuz this journey is going to be one that lasts the rest of my life.
Monday, October 29, 2007
I know that I probably write about this every week before weigh-in, but I'm worried that my work isn't going to show on the scale this week. I have stayed w/in my points all week, but haven't eaten the *best* foods that I could have. I have gone to the gym twice since my last WI, and plan to go tonight. I also went hiking both days this weekend while letterboxing. I just fear that because I had such a big loss the past two weeks (10 pounds total), that this week my body is gonna say "hold up, not so fast!"
At my last WI, I was 301.8, which means to see a "2" in front of my weight, I'd have to lose 2 pounds this week. I just don't think I did. Does anyone else's bodies seem to be behind sometimes? What I mean is that the week before & the week during my period, when I *feel* bloated, it doesn't show that bloat on the scale... but the week AFTER my period, when I feel fine, it seems like *that* is the week I don't show much of a loss on the scale. Same if I have a bad week... that week's WI will be fine, but the following week's will have slowed progress.
So anyway, I am nervous. I'm nervous of not seeing the 200s next week, and I'm worried I will see them. Yes, that sounds crazy. All week when I've weighed, I haven't been out of the 300s, I've actually been UP a couple pounds here and there. So that's why I'm worried about not seeing the 200s. The reason I am worried is that I haven't been there in probably a year, and it's scary. I don't EVER want to see the 300s again, but in the back of my mind I think about how awful it would be if I made it to the 200s, and then had a gain that put me back over the 300 mark. It'd be that same battle to get to the next century all over again.
Yes, I am being whiny.
Regardless of what the scale says, I can take pride in knowing that I am living so much better than I was a couple months ago. My clothes are looser, I can fit into the clothes that at one point were too small, and I took my measurements the other day & was floored by how many inches I've lost. So, I guess sometimes you just gotta keep on truckin'!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I tried on two pairs of pants (jeans & work pants) that I previously was unable to button. And they fit! That was a huge milestone for me, especially b/c the jeans were size 22s, and the last time I was in 22s, it took me until I was about 30 pounds lighter than I am now before I fit in them. So it was a shock, but a great shock.
I also went back to the gym this week. It felt great to push what I felt my limits were. Running on the elliptical for over 30 minutes when I haven't run in months was such a feat! Once I get past about 15 minutes, it's not as hard... but those first 15, I wanna quit! I do the fat burner program, so it alternates between low & high intensity. It's quite the workout.
My week ended on a high note as well when I went to my WW meeting this morning. I usually go Tuesday evenings, but I had to work late tonight, so I made sure to go this morning instead. I was down an astonishing 6 pounds. That's insane! Especially to lose that much in my 10th week on the program! Last week, my total lost was up to 19.8, so this week's loss made me hit my 20 pound mark AND my 25 pound mark! So I am at a total of 25.8 pounds lost in 2 months.
The greatest feeling will be when I no longer see a "3" in front of my weight. Right now I am at 301.8, so I'm pretty close to being out of this "century". I hate to get my hopes up, especially after a week w/such a big loss, but I really hope to see that "2" next week!
My personal reward for 25 pounds lost was to buy new workout clothes. So, tonight I went out and purchased myself a new gym outfit! It's just a pair of black workout pants & a cute pink t-shirt w/hearts all over it. See for yourself:
But mine does, and it's the biggest help in the world.
Before joining WW, when it was that time of the month, Mike would always pick me up a couple Hershey's bars because he knew chocolate made me feel better when I was cramping or PMSing. I thought it was so sweet of him to know that chocolate was what I needed then.... but now I think it's sweet of him that he DOESN'T buy me that chocolate. It's not like he's not buying it b/c he thinks I shouldn't have it, but he doesn't buy it b/c he knows I want to stay focused & stay on track.
When I first started WW, he kind of had it in his head that healthy food=bad tasting food. Anything low fat, fat free, or sugar free... he wasn't too interested in. But now, he at least tries most of the stuff that I bring home or make... and he actually LIKES a lot of it! For example, he took a LC pizza for lunch today!
My toughest hurdle to get across is exercise. Always has been. I've had a gym membership for over a year, but after last summer, probably used it a total of 5 times. Mike's been telling me that if I add him to my membership, he'll go with me. Honestly, I figured that he'd be too tired after work to actually go, so I was worried it would be a waste of money. Signing up is usually like $80, and that's just money we don't have right now. Our total monthly membership woudl only be $32/month though after that initial fee for him. So I called yesterday to see if they had a membership special going on, as they often do. And they did! They extended their $20 membership for a few more days, so I went yesterday & signed him up for only $32 (sign-up fee plus first month's membership)... and last night, we went to the gym! He was so excited about it and he loved it, which makes me more excited about it! I ran on the elliptical for 33 minutes & walked on the treadmill for 17... so 50 minutes of cardio for me! I also did some strength machines, and I feel it in my shoulders today... but it's a good burn! Afterwards, we went to Subway for dinner!
I'm just so thankful for him, in so many ways... but his encouragement and willingness to make an effort to be healthy with me is so fabulous. He's not following WW, but it's so cute b/c he'll have something & say "how many points do you think this was?". So he's making a conscious effort to help get us both to a healthier weight.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Today is a good day.
My clothes bottoms range from 24-26 depending on the material. I've been in 24s for years, and it wasn't until I was about 270 that I dropped to 22s. So my 22s sit lonely in my closet, waiting for the day that I will wear them. As with any clothing, certain brands run bigger or smaller than others. I have a pair of Old Navy jeans that are 24s. They usually fit good when I first put them on, then as the day goes on, they get bigger and bigger. Then I have a pair of 22s from Target that are the same way.... fitted when I put them on, then they get looser throughout the day.
The last time I tried to put on my Target jeans, I could hardly get them over my hips... I managed, but they were probably an inch and a half away from being able to button. And even if I'd been able to button them, I would have had the muffin top of the century.
Well, today I put on my Old Navy 24s, and they were just too big for me to wear to the cookout we're going to this afternoon... I was worried I'd move the wrong way & they'd fall down! Granted, I wore them all day yesterday, so they had loosened a bit.... but I thought what the hell, I'll give the Target 22s a try, just to see how far I've got to go
And I got them on.
I am sitting here typing in freaking 22's!
They are fitted on me, but Mike will love it b/c he loves tight jeans on my ass. LOL And, throughout the day I know they'll have a little more give. I honestly thought it would be like another 30 pounds before I could wear these things.
And now, picture documentation of the jean experience:
These are my Old Navy 24s
Friday, October 19, 2007
In kindergarten, I weighed 108 pounds, and my weight continued to rise throughout school... so my guess is that in about 3rd grade I weighed 140. So I have no idea what that would look like on me as an adult. I'll admit, 140 pounds scares me. I'm scared to be thin. I think that women that are about a size 14 are the best looking women. Not saying that any of you out there who have successfully lost your weight aren't beautiful, because you ARE, but in my mind, size 14 is where it's at.
What's wrong with this picture? Despite the drive to loss lots of weight, my goal is still in the "overweight" category. Is anyone else like this? I think to myself "man, if I lost 100 pounds, I'd be right about where I'd like to be" But that's still 225 pounds, far from a "healthy" goal weight.
Maybe in time, as the weight drops, my mindset will change. And for right now, I don't see it as such a bad thing, because I'm not striving for that impossible goal (or a goal that SEEMS impossible when you're over 300 pounds!). Does anyone else have the same personal conflict w/their personal goal weight vs. a healthy goal weight for their height? Did any of you out there overcome it? Share, please!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Changing my activity level was a little harder (and still is). I don't yet enjoy exercising, but I'm hopefully that as my weight drops, it will become easier, thus making me enjoy it more.
But the most challenging thing is changing my mentality. Changing the fact that food is associated with every emotion I know. Just taking my feelings for what they are, and actually FEEL them, happy or sad.
I am improving, and it's important for me to celebrate every time I get over one of those emotional hurdles.
Today I was in a car accident. It wasn't a bad one, noone was hurt, it just shook me up. It happened in a parking lot. I was letting a client out of my car and a car backed out while I was letting her out.... backed out right into my little Honda. We exchanged info, etc, then I went back to the office. I just could NOT focus. I was upset & flustered about the incident, and work was the last thing on my mind. I decided to take the afternoon off and just go home.
And the exciting part comes here: I didn't even *think* about stopping to get some comfort food on the way home. In the past, when something bad would have happened, I would have picked up lunch or ice cream or something on the way home. And it didn't even cross my mind! I got home & was hungry for lunch, so I had a turkey cheese sausage, 0 point soup, broccoli, and a salad. Totally totally healthy. And I ate because I was hungry, not because I was upset.
It feels so good to be in control.
I think it's so important to celebrate these victories.... so celebrate some of yours!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I think willpower is a crock. I don't believe in this phenomenon. A lot of times people use the excuse "If only I had the willpower to do such and such" or "Ugh, I have no willpower to say no to bad food" Sometimes we even give willpower credit when we have successes. "I had the willpower to avoid chocolate this week" or "I had the willpower to stay on plan"
Who is in charge here???
Take credit for your strengths as well as your weaknesses. If you ate a pound of chocolate, it's not because you lacked something and it made you fail, it's because you chose not to stick to your plan. Same thing goes for having a good week. You didn't have a good week b/c you have this magic thing called willpower, you had a good week because you treated your body well.
Just food for thought... what do you think?
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
All the hard work paid off on the scale too, though, and I was down 4 pounds!!!
The only stick in the mud was that I was a measly .2 away from hitting my 20 pound mark. But, oh well, I will hit it next week. I certainly can't be upset that it was "only" 4 pounds.... it was 4 POUNDS!
This week my goal is to get my butt to the gym 3 times. I haven't been to the gym consistently in over a year.... I'll go once or twice, then stop. Even though I've been walking, I need to step it up and get into a gym routine.
A little off topic, but I'm watching The Biggest Loser, and Jez's face looks SO skinny tonight!
Monday, October 15, 2007
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Well, my weekend away was great! I feel really good, mentally and physically. Without going into the whole long details of the trip, I want to highlight a few parts.
The first being that I hiked for about 4 hours on Saturday, and maybe 2 total today. It was a lot of hiking! We had crazy inclines for a lot of it, and I was winded like mad, but I made it. I was hiking w/two other girls, one who's about 100 pounds, and one who's about 150.... so I was carrying around at least double what they are. But, I kept up. Proud moment right there. There were a couple of times I wanted to give up... but I didn't.
The first time was when we were in the bottom of this canyon. The trail takes you through the bottom of the canyon, which has a waterway through it... a little creek/stream. When the water's high, you wouldn't be able to get through this way, but when the water is lower, like at this time of year, you can go that way. However, there are not always easy pathways to walk. There's still water, but maybe ankle-knee deep in some parts. There are some edges along the bank that you can walk on at times, then at other times, you have to balance on whatever random rocks are nearby that can act as a stepping stone. When the girls told me we needed to go through the canyon to get to where we were going, I thought they were crazy. I didn't even think I could make it across the 4 stepping stones to get our journey started. They seemed to breeze right across it, as did everyone else I saw do it... but I was terrified. I was worried that the rocks would sink in with my weight, or else they would slip & topple over & I'd fall in the water. Granted, the water wasn't that deep, but it still spelled f-a-i-l-u-r-e to me. Well, they encouraged me, and I made it across the 4 simple stepping stones. For awhile it was smooth sailing, walked along the banks, had maybe 1 stepping stone at a time that we'd have to use... all was well. Until we got to one part. The only option was to walk across using about 15-20 stepping stones, through the water. There was no bank to walk on, nothing... it was these tiny foot-sized rocks, or else turn around. And they weren't right in a row either, you had kind of leap to them at times.... and when rocks are wet, they are slippery!
I knew that my fear was a mental one, and I knew that if I was going to do this, I needed to go first. In my mind, if the other girls made it across, it was because they were light-weight, skinny things, that could just easily get through this task. I know that isn't necessarily the case, but that's what my mind was telling me... I thought that if I went first, I would have noone to compare it to. If someone else had just breezed right through it & made it look easy, I would have felt really down on myself if it wasn't that easy for me. So.... I told them I wanted to go first. I was terrified. It wouldn't have been that big of a deal to fall in the water... like I said, it wasn't very deep... it would have been cold is all... but to me, falling was failure. I never EVER would have done something like this before. If I'd gotten to that point in the trail, I would have said "well, I guess it's time to turn around". So getting past this feat was something huge that I needed to do. It took me awhile, and it wasn't easy. Several rocks were wobbly, and I had to hold my body so stiff to balance.... but slowly, I made my way across the water. I'd say it was maybe 30-40 yards?
I DID IT.
I had such an adrenaline rush after that, I felt like I could do ANYTHING. I wanted to cry, I was so excited. In my head, while I was doing it, I just kept saying "you can do this, you can do this... pretend like this is a Biggest Loser challenge... you can do this". And I did. And just like on the BL, winning isn't always the most important thing... finishing is.
After that feat, we got out of the canyon and had a bit more hiking, mostly at a very steep incline. Eventually, our hike took us back down to the canyon to explore, then it was getting dark, so we knew we needed to get back to the top of the canyon. And there was only one way to do that.
They have these wooden staircases built throughout the park so that you can get to the many levels of trails... and we were at the lowest point & needed to get to the highest.... which was hundreds of feet above us.... once again, I thought there was NO WAY I could possibly make it up all those stairs. At all.
But, we started out... I counted... and after 150, I lost count, but my guess is that there were probably about 50 more after that. So I climbed 200 stairs in a row, and I survived. My legs felt like jelly, and after about half the stairs, I didn't think there was any way I could carry my 300+ pound body up any more stairs.... but I did. I had the strength that I didn't know I had.
Was I exhausted after all that? Absolutely.
But more importantly, I was proud of myself, I had more confidence in my abilities, and I felt like I'd really accomplished great things & pushed myself farther than I ever had before.
Friday, October 12, 2007
So, tonight I was having a carb and a sugar craving... Specifically, I wanted potatoes. Well, lucky me, I had a pack of garlic & herb instant mashed potatoes. Now, I know some people hate instant potatoes... me, I LOVE THEM. And for 3 points, I got 1 1/3 cups of wonderful mashed potato goodness. I also made myself a cheese quesadilla. Then to fulfill my sugar craving, instead of having a huge ice cream sundae or something, I went to Starbucks & got a light vanilla bean frap for a low 3 points.
Another thing about tonight was that Mike was at a concert... so I was home alone... and we all know that when Teale's home alone, she gets bored.... and that can lead to boredom eating w/o a plan... but, being the prepared Weight Watcher that I am, I have a plan! So, I consulted my "things to do when I'm bored" list, and went to the book store... I spent a couple hours there, sipping my light frap, and it was great.
Now I'm heading to bed to get a good night's sleep before my big hiking trip to Starved Rock tomorrow... can't wait!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
I woke up and made myself some breakfast. I cooked an individual cup of egg beaters (I love those things!) with a slice of pepperjack singles melted in them. That's my favorite way to eat them! Then I also had a bowl of cereal w/double the milk.
Had kind of a dull morning at work, but instead of snacking when bored, I drank and drank and drank! I had 6 glasses down by lunchtime! I did have a snack mid-morning... one of my hershey's 100 calorie wafer bars. I love those things! It's a perfect fix of chocolate!
Lunchtime came, and I tried a new Smart Ones... turkey with garlic potatoes. It was GREAT! And only 4 points! I had myself a salad & a tomato as well. Then had a 2 point ice cream bar for dessert.
Afternoon came, and I took a couple clients to the local apple orchard. I did indulge in an apple donut... my first donut in months! I enjoyed it, but it wasn't as good as I remember donuts being!
I knew I wouldn't be cooking dinner tonight b/c I had errands to run, so I picked up Subway for Mike & I on the way home. He's happy that I'm eating more Subway b/c he really likes it... I didn't used to eat it much b/c when I lived in the dorms at college, that's pretty much all I ate, and I got burnt out on it! I had some goldfish w/my sandwich too... love them little things!
Then tonight, I made some more 1 point cake cookies! I tried them w/Pineapple cake this time! I got the recipe from Trisha, you can see it here. I think I like them better than the chocolate ones. I also have some spice cake to try them with next time!
So yeah, nothing too special happened today, but it just felt like a good day. I went to bed really early last night (8:30) and woke up this morning at the first beep of the alarm at 6 w/o needing to hit snooze 3 times! Getting a good night's sleep definately makes a difference!
Tomorrow will be exercise day 2 for this week (my WW week goes from wednesday-tuesday). Will probably just do a morning walk. Another good thing that's been going on is that my time on my routes is improving! A route that used to take me 30 minutes to walk only took me 24 minutes yesterday! That's a great improvement!
Anyway, I guess I didn't really have much to talk about, so I'll quit blabbing now... time to read me some Dr. Phil!
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
I'm not going to lie. I did horribly with exercise this week. I honestly don't know that I will ever enjoy it... but I know that I will enjoy the results I see because of it. I only walked 2 days this week, and didn't go to the gym, or do my BL dvd even once. My goal for this week is to exercise 4 times.
I started taking a daily vitamin this past week, and I really do feel like I've got more energy. I take it at night when I take my BC pill, so I don't ever forget it. I also did much better with my water this week. I didn't drink 8 glasses every day, but I'd say I did it for at least 5 days.
My goals for this coming week include my exercise x 4, water EVERY day, and to eat more fruits/veggies. They are one thing I often let slide.
I may have a somewhat challenging weekend. I am going on a little mini-trip to a state park on Saturday/Sunday. Breakfast Saturday I will have before I leave. Then lunch & dinner both will be meals out. I will just have to make good choices and stick to my plan. I am also going to bring some granola bars, 100 cal packs, or fruit with me to have as snacks and breakfast on Sunday. We will be doing a lot of hiking on Saturday, so I'll get good exercise in then, which I'm excited about. There will always be challenges though, for the rest of my life, so just keeping my focus & sticking to my plan is what the answer is going to be!
And do you know WHY their team is kicking so much ass?
Because they have something to prove.
Everyone has their own reason for losing weight, everyone has their own personal motivation... but collectively, as a team, they want to show what they're made of to prove everyone else wrong.
I think it's a great attitude to have. I absolutely am not saying you should lose weight for other people, you have to do it for yourself, or it won't stay off... but I'm saying that proving yourself to others can be a real motivating factor. The people that used to pick you last in gym, the salespeople that snub their noses at you when you come into their store, the waiters that seem to be judging you for being overweight & eating a meal out....
You can prove to them, but most importantly yourself just how strong you are.
Monday, October 8, 2007
It's usually on days that Mike's gone that I'll have my boredom binges... so on those days, I have started making myself a to-do list. I love lists, so checking items off the list is always exciting. Tonight he's working late, so I made a list of all the things I needed to do, could do, and would like to do but haven't in awhile. And it's kept me busy. I stopped to have dinner, obviously, but I haven't snacked once.
It's funny, because on my list was to read 10 pages in my Dr. Phil book... 9 pages down, I found this quote:
"You are creating the situations you're in; you're creating the thoughts and emotions that flow from those situations. You must embrace the fact that you own your problems and take action to solve them."
Pretty perfect quote for the situation tonight, I'd say! I made sure to put enough items on my list that I couldn't run out... there are things on there that I will not get done tonight, but that's fine. I'd rather that happen than to check them all off and then mindlessly go to the fridge b/c I was out of tasks.
What are the situations you've created, and what action are you taking to solve them?
Most mornings, I would go to either McDonald's or Sonic. At McDonald's, I would order 2 breakfast burritos, a sausage/cheese biscuit, and an extra large Dr. Pepper. Yes, that's enough to feed 3 right there. And an estimated total of 40 points. That's more than I eat in a whole DAY now. The Dr. Pepper alone is 10-12 points. Outrageous.
I'd sometimes hit the vending machine and get a big bag of cheese-its and a mountain dew. This is an estimated total of 12 points
Once a week I would meet a friend for lunch and we would go to eat on campus... we'd eat at a variety of places, but then top it off with Coldstone. Qdoba was one of our favorites... it's a mexican restaurant. I'd get nachos and iced tea w/sweetener. The nachos are an estimated total of 20 points but that might be too little, I couldn't find the exact nutritional info. And then we'd go to Coldstone and I'd get a medium sized creation, for about 20 points.
Sometimes I would go through the DQ drive thru and get a medium cookie dough blizzard for about 24 points
It wasn't uncommon for us to order pizza for dinner. Usually they had some kind of special where you get free cheesesticks or breadsticks or something w/the pizza... so I'd usually have a couple slices of pizza, several cheese sticks, and some garlic butter... an estimated 40 points
For a grand total of Teale's ultimate old bad day as: 156 points
That is almost 8,000 calories that on a really bad day I used to consume.
Wow, that was unbelievable. Like I said, not every day was like this, but these days probably existed once per week. And it's really only out of sheer laziness.
That's really overwhelming to see, and really embarrassing to admit. But, that's my past... that's what got me here, and all the tools I'm using now, including this blog, is what's gonna get me far away from that.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Here I am now.
And here I am in April.
^This is my favorite e-pic of us!
What do you guys think?
Friday, October 5, 2007
The only thing weight-related she said wasn't really directed at me to lose weight, but more just in conversation about the HPV shot Gardisil, she mentioned how it reduces the risk of cervical cancer, then she said "And losing weight will also reduce your risk". That's the only time she addressed losing weight at all.
After the appointment, I had a rough afternoon, emotions-wise. I was just overwhelmed with some stuff, and was feeling very emotional. I feel so proud of myself though, I didn't turn to food at all. I didn't even THINK about turning to it! I got out of the house & went to the book store to browse. I did get a 3-point drink from Starbucks, but I got it because I was thirsty & I wanted a treat, not because I thought it would make me feel better.
Tomorrow is Mike & my 1-year anniversary. We'll be going to dinner at my favorite mexican restaurant. I know what I'm getting all ready, so as long as I stick to my plan, I should be fine, points-wise! Hope everyone has a good weekend!
What I do dread though, is that every time I go to the gyno, I get hassled about my weight. Let me emphasize two things. 1)I know I'm overweight. 2)I'm working on it.
I know that they're just doing their job as doctors to encourage their patients to be healthy, but it's just such a sensitive subject for me. It's even happened to me before when I've gone in to the doctor b/c of a COLD... the doctor wanted to discuss my obesity. Well I wanted to discuss his bad breath, but I kept my mouth shut, so why doesn't it work both ways?
I do have some "ammo" so to speak though, because the last time I was at the doctor was in May or June, and I weighed about 20 pounds more... so I at least have some evidence that I have made progress. Unfortunately compared to a year ago, I am about 20 pounds heavier... so I'm sure that will come up. Not much I can do about the past though, I just have to continue to do what I'm doing in the present so that I can meet my goal in the future.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Mike hugged me, then looked me up and down, patted my stomach and said
But the best thing I did was AVOID THE CHEDDAR BISCUITS!!!
In the past, I would have probably eaten 3 or 4 of those throughout the meal... and at 4 points a pop... ouch! I didn't even actually LOOK at them, didn't miss them either.
And I looked up the crab alfredo that I used to get, to see points value for that... and it's like 30 points for a full order of it. OMG.
So, tonight was an excellent dinner, I felt really proud of myself for making good choices, and I didn't walk out of there MISERABLY stuffed (or find myself parched in the evening like I used to after all the fried, high-sodium food I used to eat there!). Great evening:)
I don't know, I just don't like this.... just go check to see if you are there!
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
This is really a large part of how I let myself get to the highest weight I was ever at.... because I didn't see myself as someone that weighed that much. I think part of this comes from people telling me my whole life that I "carry my weight well" or "don't look like I weigh that much". Yes, it's meant as a compliment, but it's really messed w/my head!
A nurse once actually thought the scale was inaccurate when I stepped on and it weighed me at over 300 pounds.... I had to be the one to tell her "nope, I really am that fat".
Anyway, that just popped into my head this evening, so I thought I'd get it out there...
Monterray-Jack Ranch Chicken
5 servings/4 points each
(or 21.5 points for the whole recipe & make as many servings as you want!)
1 small can FF Cream of Chicken soup
1 packet of dry Ranch Dressing seasoning
1 package boneless/skinless chicken breasts (my package was about 18 oz, and points are figured for that amount... I also purchased the thin style so that it wouldn't take as long to cook)
1 c. 2% Monterray-Jack shredded cheese
1. Mix the soup and the ranch dressing in a small bowl. Add a few drops of milk or water if you think it's too thick (remember that this will thin out as it cooks!)
2. Spray a glass baking dish w/cooking spray & place chicken breasts in it.
3. Spoon the soup/ranch mixture evenly over the chicken.
4. Cook for 30 minutes in a 350 degree oven.
5. Add the shredded cheese and cook for 5 more minutes
This would also be good without the cheese, if you were looking to cut points. I think the cheese adds a little something to it, but the flavor of the ranch is certainly good on it's own, too.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
That's like the stupid little riddle "Which weighs more, a pound of feathers or a pound of lead?"
A POUND IS A POUND!
I understand the benefits of having muscle on your body, and I understand that it takes up less space on your body than fat does, so in that respect, you would have a smaller mass but possibly weigh more because of the added muscle. But I just think that statement up there is irritating!
I'm enjoying the Dr. Phil book, but he said that in one of his paragraphs, and it's just one of my pet peeves I guess! Oh, I'll get over it, I just had to have a random little hissy fit:)
Something was just "off" this week. I haven't really pinpointed exactly what it was, I think I was just a little tired of the required effort. I've done a lot of reflection in the past few days though, and I know that the effort will be forever required. There will be off weeks like this, yes... but honestly, I still lost, so this wasn't a bad week. The scale is showing smaller numbers every week... and that's all I can ask!
And I went for my walk.
So even if the scale doesn't move tonight, or if I gained, it's OK, because I'm on my way... I'm making progress off the scale, mentally.
Monday, October 1, 2007
8 balls/3 points each
1 pound ground turkey (I used 93/7)
1/2 c. uncooked rice (I used white, but brown is good too!)
2 small cans (or 1 big can) FF cream of mushroom soup
Seasonings (I used minced garlic & pepper... no salt needed, the soup has enough in it!)
1. In a mixing bowl, combine the ground turkey, rice, and seasonings. Use your hands to mix these ingredients together until very well mixed.
2. Form 8 balls and place in a glass baking dish coated w/cooking spray.
3. Cover the meatballs with the mushroom soup.
4. Cook, uncovered, in a 350 degree oven for 25-30 minutes. I like to cut the biggest meatball down the middle to make sure they're done.
My mom used to also make these with tomato soup. I don't like tomato soup, so I don't make it this way, but you could change things up a bit to make it however you liked things! Just be sure to adjust points if necessary!
Stop telling yourself that you absolutely "have to" lose weight, because that's a lie. You don't "have to" lose weight. You may want to, you may even need to, but you don't have to. It would be nice if you did, but it isn't something you must do. That's just what you have been telling yourself because you thought it would motivate you. Lying to yourself like this won't help you; trust me. You have to breathe--no choice there--but you don't have to lose weight. So instead of all that drama and self-recrimination, I want you to choose to feel very calm and very relaxed. Get up each morning, look at yourself in the mirror, and see yourself not as someone who is overweight or out of shape, but as the someone you will become, a person with a greater level of dignity and worth who, for probably the first time ever, is finally going to succeed--for a lifetime.
For those of you that have read it, have you written in it in your blog? Refer me to those entries, please, I'm interested in reading more about this book!
Cheesecake Fruit Dip
0 points/2 tbsp
1 (8 oz) container FF Cool Whip
1 package instant SF/FF Cheesecake Pudding
3/4 c. Skim Milk
You just mix the pudding & milk until it's a thick consistency, then mix it with the cool whip.... SO EASY!
I've been eating it w/graham crackers, as "icing" on my cake cookies, mixed w/strawberries for a healthy "strawberries & cream", dipped other fruit in it.... etc.
My next endeavor is going to be a banana dessert... I don't have points values for it yet, but here's what I'm gonna do:
1. Crush 2 graham crackers and spread on the bottom of an 8 or 9 inch round pan/pie plate.
2. Make the fruit dip above, only use banana pudding instead of cheesecake pudding.
3. Slice up a large banana and stir in this mixture.
4. Break up (haven't decided how many... depends on points) LF Nilla Wafers and mix in
5. Spread this mixture over the graham crackers, then decorate the top with more Nilla Wafers, graham cracker crumbs, or fruit, if desired!
Sounds SO good!!!
I seriously am going to have this fruit dip in my household at all times, in some form. It's nice b/c when you add the pudding mixture in, it makes the whipped cream a little less fluffy, so you can actually refill the empty cool whip container with your dip! I just took the little cardboard thing off the lid so that I'd know it wasn't really cool whip (cuz I have that in my fridge too). Seriously, LOVE IT.