So I've been missing in action from this blog for almost a week! That's unheard of! No worries though, I haven't fallen off the wagon, I've just been busy!
I know that I probably write about this every week before weigh-in, but I'm worried that my work isn't going to show on the scale this week. I have stayed w/in my points all week, but haven't eaten the *best* foods that I could have. I have gone to the gym twice since my last WI, and plan to go tonight. I also went hiking both days this weekend while letterboxing. I just fear that because I had such a big loss the past two weeks (10 pounds total), that this week my body is gonna say "hold up, not so fast!"
At my last WI, I was 301.8, which means to see a "2" in front of my weight, I'd have to lose 2 pounds this week. I just don't think I did. Does anyone else's bodies seem to be behind sometimes? What I mean is that the week before & the week during my period, when I *feel* bloated, it doesn't show that bloat on the scale... but the week AFTER my period, when I feel fine, it seems like *that* is the week I don't show much of a loss on the scale. Same if I have a bad week... that week's WI will be fine, but the following week's will have slowed progress.
So anyway, I am nervous. I'm nervous of not seeing the 200s next week, and I'm worried I will see them. Yes, that sounds crazy. All week when I've weighed, I haven't been out of the 300s, I've actually been UP a couple pounds here and there. So that's why I'm worried about not seeing the 200s. The reason I am worried is that I haven't been there in probably a year, and it's scary. I don't EVER want to see the 300s again, but in the back of my mind I think about how awful it would be if I made it to the 200s, and then had a gain that put me back over the 300 mark. It'd be that same battle to get to the next century all over again.
Yes, I am being whiny.
Regardless of what the scale says, I can take pride in knowing that I am living so much better than I was a couple months ago. My clothes are looser, I can fit into the clothes that at one point were too small, and I took my measurements the other day & was floored by how many inches I've lost. So, I guess sometimes you just gotta keep on truckin'!