Does anyone else have this problem? Usually the distortion you think of is someone thinking they're fatter than they are.... but for me, it's the opposite. When I look in the mirror, I don't see myself as big as I am. But every once in awhile, I'll catch a glimpse of myself in the window of a store or something, and I'll think "God, who IS that fat person?!" And, well, it's ME.
This is really a large part of how I let myself get to the highest weight I was ever at.... because I didn't see myself as someone that weighed that much. I think part of this comes from people telling me my whole life that I "carry my weight well" or "don't look like I weigh that much". Yes, it's meant as a compliment, but it's really messed w/my head!
A nurse once actually thought the scale was inaccurate when I stepped on and it weighed me at over 300 pounds.... I had to be the one to tell her "nope, I really am that fat".
Anyway, that just popped into my head this evening, so I thought I'd get it out there...
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when i look into the mirror or see myself in pictures, i think i am much more heavy than i really am.
and when i picture myself in my head, i picture myself much lighter and in much better shape than i really am.
talk about a distorted body image! :)
I have the same reverse distortion. I look in the mirror and think I look pretty good. I will go to a party and feel like I am looking hot but then see pictures from the party and feel stupid for thinking I looked that way because I look horrible! I think most of my body image comes from the fact that I was so thin. I still feel and think like that person, but trapped in this body and thats why it takes a photo to remind me that i need to work on letting that thin person out.
Oh wow...I can so relate! I've thought the same thing. I look at myself in the mirror and think, "no way can I be as heavy as the scale says...no way."
But I am.
What always hits me are photos--actual photos. I see them and then think I was truly deluding myself...
Great post!
And ps--thank you for stopping by and offering some encouragement. You have no idea how much I needed it!
I feel like that, too! It's like sometimes I just cannot believe that I weigh as much as I do, and I cannot believe that I could possibly be as big as I really am. Maybe I have whacked out mirrors or something. I don't know. lol
And I feel like I do carry my weight well. And I know that sounds crazy. How can you carry 300 + pounds "well" when you're only 5'7"? lol
I, too, had an experience with a nurse who was weighing me several years ago. I came in at around 270 or 280 pounds, and she told me, "You don't look like you weigh that much." I was thrilled, and I still am. And I'm anxious for the point when I weigh 270 or 280 again... just to see what the heck she was talking about.
And sometimes I think I feel this way because I am not around a lot of "normal-sized" people on a daily basis. But when I am around "normal" people, I do get a reality check and realize how heavy I really am in comparison.
Definitely! This is exactly how I see myself. I shall write about this on the blog... got too much to say to put it in a comment..lol
But know that I feel EXACTLY like you do about this. You're not alone.
I'm really confused about my body right now. I still FEEL like I look like I did at 301 pounds but when I look at pictures of myself I KNOW I don't look the same as I did then. Sometimes I'll go to sit in a chair and think "I can't fit in there' and then when I sink in easily I remeber "oh yeah, I lost 60 some odd pounds". I think the weight goes first and the body image comes later. I hope so at least.
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