I know I'm not the only one who totally gets inspired to lose weight once a new season of The Biggest Loser comes on (sidenote--already don't like one of the girls, the wedding-planner-diva one, but anyhoo...). The contestants are inspiration, and I can usually see myself in at least one of them (except no really BIG girls on it this year, what's up with that, BL?). A lot of times their stories could be our stories. It makes us want to change... but then we don't. Or maybe we do for a little while, but we stop.
What's UP with that?!!?
This week's episode had them visiting the doc, where he tells them all the awful stuff that's going on with their bodies... diabetes, hypertension, fat surrounding their organs, clogged arteries... nasty stuff. And then he tells them what their "real" age is, which is usually WAY high up there compared to their actual age. And for most of them it's a huge eye-opener. And for me, it's probably why I haven't been to the doctor in a couple years for a physical... because I'm afraid of what they might say! I go for my annual girly-visits, and I'll go occasionally when I'm sick, but I haven't had routine lab work done in several years. Cuz I'm a big ol' scaredy cat.
The doc on BL this week asked one of the contestants "Do you want to live" and through tears, she said yes, obviouisly... "Well you're not acting like it" was his response. And it's true. So many times we talk about how we want to change, and we want to be healthy.... but we're not acting like it! I am beyond guilty of this fact as well. How many times have I stopped and started while keeping this blog (my last entry was number 300, btw)? A LOT. I say I want to change, but I sure as hell don't act like it, do I? Do you?
So it's time to act like I want to live. No more pity parties about how it's hard--obviously it's hard, but it wasn't EASY getting to the weight that I am... I had to work at that too, cuz it doesn't just happen on it's own. I deserve a long, happy, healthy life, and it's nobody's responsiblity to see that I get there but my own.
Tonight at 5:30, I face the music.