Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Facing the music.

You know, that expression "Time to face the music" sounds a lot more glamourous than it really is. There was actually no music. Not even a little horn, or even a whistle. But figuratively, I did face it at Weight Watchers tonight.

I knew what it was going to say... I've been weighing at home & seeing that number rise and rise. So it wasn't going to be a surprise... I just didn't want to see that +15ish pounds that I knew was going to be written on my WW card. It turned out to be +14.4. In one month. Do you see how easy it is to put this stupid weight back on, yet so hard to take it off? ONE MONTH and I gained back what it takes people 2 or so months (at least) to lose! So, overall I am up 20.2 pounds from my lowest. That puts me at 294 pounds. Big old 294.

But, at least it's on paper, and it's a new starting point.

Day two also went very well, considering that having to face my weight, in addition to being told I didn't get a job I was vying (sp?) for... my instinct was "I want food". But I resisted, to an extent. I still did grab my baggie full of dry cereal when I felt mopey, so I was still eating emotionally, but it wasn't a bag of chips or a carton of ice cream. It was an improvement.

Today's food:
(b)Donut & orange juice (6)
(s1)Granola bar & banana (4)
(l)LC meal & salad (10)
(s2)dry cereal (3)
(d)Beef & broccoli (no rice!) & tomato w/olive oil & goat cheese (8)
(s3)Ice cream cone (3)
Total: 34

7 comments:

Martha said...

Hi, don't give up! You're worthy of being healthy and happy:-) I loved your "action plan" post.

Barb Smith said...

Honey...I go up and down and down and up. It happens. But now you know and you have a plan of action.

In the words of Winston Churchill, "Never, never, NEVER give up."

You can do it, Teale!

The Fat Foreigner said...

I love your new layout so much! (err... it may ot be that new, I ususally check you on my google reader so I don;t getto see it).

Anonymous said...

Well the important thing is that you faced the music. You did what you had to do..and you've had two days going great.. sounds all good to me. I'd rather not focus on the gain you've had. I know it's disappointing, but you knew it happened anyway.

The Fat Foreigner said...

My friend told me about mapmyrun a few weeks ago, but I figured I'd never be able to find my route being all the way in the ass end of Japan, but I was nicely suprised!

Heather said...

I give you a lot of credit for facing that scale. its not the end of the world, and as I said before, just move on from this. you know you dont want to end up back in this spot again, so just look forward and do your best.

Journo June aka MamaBear said...

Congrats on facing that music and having a plan. You'll be feeling so much better when you make those healthy choices.
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