I don't know what to do. I don't know why sometimes this just clicks & it's easy as can be, and other times it just doesn't. Why sometimes my heart & head say "get it together" but my body doesn't listen & goes through the motion of old habits. I don't know what to do anymore. If I keep doing what I'm doing, I WILL gain all my weight back.
It's probably not the right answer, but I thought about cancelling my WW subscription. Let's face it, I haven't been using it. But then in the back of my mind, I think about how one of my 2008 goals was to celebrate my WW anniversary in August. Which is only 2 months away. But what good is an anniversary if you're not working the program. And what good is an anniversary if you have gained back half of what you've lost.
I have become a person that lets one thing get me off course. Monday I was supposed to go to the gym w/my friend. She couldn't end up going, but another friend said she'd go with me. Well, at the last minute she backed out... so so did I. I did go grocery shopping, but I shouldn't have gone to the store that I did b/c they didn't have half of the stuff I had on my list. I was PMSing and literally almost cried in the meat aisle because they didn't have ground turkey. They also didn't have a number of other items that I wanted. So I got an effing pizza & some ice cream & called it a day. I stayed home sick on Tuesday, so I didn't go to my WW meeting. I just let these outside forces take over and control me.
I don't know what to do or how to fix myself at this point. I want to be back in the healthy mindset, but I'm just not there right now.
Tell me what to do, cuz I don't know.