Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Dear Old Self

Dear Old Self,

On August 22, 2007 I took a vow to leave you behind. At first it was easy. I was motivated to find the New Self, and I walked away from you pretty much without even looking back. I gave up your desire for greasy McDonald's, daily candy bars, and calorie-filled, sugar-loaded pop. New Self was winning the battle, and pounds dropped off. I think New Self lost 30 pounds in 3 months. It was a great ego boost, let me tell you. New Self was kicking Old Self's ass.

Around Thanksgiving time, Old Self, you tried to sneak your way back into my life. I tried to remain strong & remember how great New Self felt, but you were trying your hardest to be the boss in my life again. I fought back hard too though, and even though I didn't lose like I had been, I still came through the holidays weighing less than I did at the beginning of them.

The new year came, and New Self was feeling lazy and tired... you are a figher, Old Self... You were really fighting to win my life over again, and I felt exhausted from fighting you! I went through some tough times in my personal life starting in January, and New Self started to feel defeated. Why bother? New Self tried to at least hold on a little through the storm, but Old Self, you seemed to be getting stronger.

Eventually New Self gave up. New Self was tired of fighting and it was easier to just back down and let you take charge again. I thought that New Self had totally hit the road, never to be seen again. Old Self, you have been ruining my life. You have got to go. I'm not happier with you around, and I'm certainly not healthier. Sometimes we keep old friends in our lives just because they've been there for so long. They might not be the best thing for us anymore (maybe they never were), but we feel attached to them in a very strong way. Well, Old Self, you are not my friend anymore. It's time to say goodbye.

I think in August, I really just said "see ya later" to you, but this time, I have to say goodbye for good. We can't meet again in the future, not if I want to be a healthy person and have New Self in my life. We have to close this chapter. You've been a close friend, Old Self, but I can't say you've been a "good" friend. You've been there for me when others weren't, but I know New Self will eventually be stronger than you ever were. It will just take time for New Self to thrive. But the good news is that even though you returned, New Self didn't really abandon me like I thought. Somehow, New Self held on through the rough waters lately, because she wants to be my best friend now.

New Self has grown her wings. It's time to fly.

Teale

12 comments:

Hanlie said...

Yay, she's back!

Twix said...

It's time to fly!!! Beautiful letter!(((hugs)))

HappyBlogChick said...

Hoooooraaaaaaaay!!!

You know, you're really not going to miss Old Self. Go, New Self, go!

Cammy said...

So glad to see you're on the healthy path again! You KNOW you can do this.

Scale Junkie said...

I KNOW you can do this!!!

Holly said...

Glad to see you!!! Grab on to New Self and don't look back! Who cares about the mistakes you've made (we all do it!), just start fresh!

Brittany said...

woooooo hoo!!! good for you!!! :) welcome back!!!

Heather said...

great letter to yourself!!

briy said...

That was such a great entry... very inspirational. One of my favorite weight loss books recommends writing a letter to your "fat self," and I've been thinking about doing it, but now I definitely will. Thanks for the inspiration, and I'm so happy for you that you're back with New Self. I'm sure you can do it. Hang in there!

Take care!
~briy

Trisaratops said...

Hello friend! I am proud of you for kicking old self to the curb. We have to be aware all the time, or it slips away from us bit by bit. I know you will have the success you had before. And you're going to rock! I'm also happy that you're enjoying your new boyfriend! Hooray! I could relate to many things you said in your come clean post. Its easy to get discouraged and feel hopeless, but remember that you have so much support out here if you need us. And you had success before, so you can do it, girl!

Diet Coke and Zingers said...

I love this! You've said it for all of us!

Lori said...

I need to introduce your Old Self to my Old Self...maybe they can go make a life together and leave us alone!! Here's to our New Selves! Great post!