Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Lost my focus

So a lot of the ladies that I'm reading right now seem to have gone through a similar funk that I have been going through recently. Many of us started our journey at about the same time... perhaps this is the 6-8 month lull?

I have had a really really horrible 2 weeks. And for about 2 months before that, I was just half-assing it. These past two weeks though, it has been a no-holds-barred bingefest. I gave myself permission to eat what I wanted while on vacation. Mistake number one. Then when I came back, I didn't get focused like I said I would. I gave myself permission to only "try" a little bit of core & still pig out when I wanted... UNTIL TUESDAY (my ww meeting day).

Well, it's Tuesday. I weighed in. And had a 6.4 pound gain since 2 weeks ago. I honestly expected more. I thought it was going to be at least 10. I know that 6 pounds will come off with some hard work and focus.

I've honestly been wondering if I should see someone about my food issues. It's like I have blinders on and don't even realize what I'm doing until it's too late. The old habit of going to the drive-thru to get food late at night, the grabbing a piece of candy every time I pass the candy dish, the going down to the cafeteria at work every day to get a big lunch... these are habits that don't even register at the time that they're occuring. And similarly, good habits don't even register that they're missing. My friend texted me yesterday and asked if I wanted to go to the gym. THE GYM? I forgot I HAD a gym membership. I forgot that's something I SHOULD be doing. What the heck?! My most recent cause for bingeing lately has simply been boredom. How sad is that? Boredom.

So, tomorrow it's back to the grindstone. I asked my ww leader if I could get another copy of the getting started materials that they give you in week one. I gave all my stuff to my mom, so don't even have the materials to read over for the core plan. I'm unclear if the plan will be for me or not, but I figure I should try something.

Thanks to those of you that still stick by me, despite my lack of support for both myself and others right now. Mwah!

14 comments:

briy said...

Hi there!

Thankfully I'm not in that funk, but I've definitely noticed it around on some of the blogs I've read today. I just escaped from it recently, thankfully, but I'm sure I'll have to square off against it again soon.

I'm glad the gain wasn't anymore, and that you know you can buckle down and get rid of those pounds and then some. It's the beginning of April, so I've seen lot of plans of attack this morning. You've got a clean slate! I wish you the best of luck. :)

Take care!
~briy

Scale Junkie said...

I feel like I"m starting over. I hope it will be the last time I start over but I'm in this for life so there will be many start over times in life, the key is not letting 100 pounds build up in between start overs. We have to look at the fact that we've lost weight and kept it off and take it from there

Twix said...

It will happen with some hard work. I don't know much about the core plan but would be willing to chat if you want to chat about it. I'm sort of giving up weight watchers and I'm looking for something else to help me keep track. And would you like to get together to trail hike with me? If it sounds like a grand idea to you, just email me. Maybe we could get together over the weekend or something.:)

Brittany said...

I've been in a bit of a funk too. I've been going over my points. Even if it is just by one or two. Last week, I gave up and stopped counting points on Friday. And didn't count them again until Monday morning since I didn't go to weigh in on Monday. I am back on track now. But I think it's the coming out of winter and going to spring but it's still too cold here to be spring funk. At least that's what I call it :)

Good luck my dear!

Lyn said...

I had a winter funk but I think I am over it, finally. You'll get your mojo back... just get a few good days under your belt and it will feel so good you'll want to keep going :)

*ccc* said...

You know what Teale--we're all going to go through lulls here and there, and I think it's perfectly normal.

I know my funk had a lot to do with the fact that my progress wasn't what I wanted and that I really was tired of all the effort it took to eat healthy and exercise.

I took a break. Did I pay for it when I got back on the scale? Sure. But you know what? Sometimes it gives you that motivational kick to keep on going.

I think it's hard to be a perfect eater or a perfect exerciser 24-7...we're just not made that way. The occasional break will just keep you going here and there.

Overall, you're still down from where you started right? So focus on that and keep on trucking.

You might surprise yourself once you get going again :)

Hugs to you!

Heather said...

thats why so many people have such a hard time keeping the weight off that they lose..because they dont deal with the issues that got them there in teh first place. that is why I know I have failed so many times in the past. because I never really dealt with why I was eating or repeating the same behaviors over and over. so I think its great that you are already recognizing that this is what is standing in your way. and whether its talking to someone or working at it yourself, I know that you can do it. and like you said, those 6 pounds will come off real fast for you with some exercise and eating on plan. none of this is easy and it doesnt matter where you are at in the game, there are always challenges. and I admire you for sticking with this and seeing it through no matter what.

Cammy said...

Well, at least you're in the right place now! You know what you have to do and you seem committed to doing it. I have complete faith that you will, too!

Poonie said...

Frustration is part of the process it seems and the way to come out of it is to turn it towards the positive and not let it make you give up. Sometimes a kick and a change is a good start.

I'm doing the Core plan which I find much easier than Flex. It really is about clean eating though, and I've found the only thing that works is the thing that fits your lifestyle so you might find it tough if it's not the way you eat. It's basically based on the GI diet principles but not exactly (one main difference being pasta and potatoes are not seen as evil - yay!) and I find it easy because I am not good at counting points or calories etc. The one real struggle will be if you like bread and baked goods/sweets and eat them often because it's the main thing that is very off limits. I don't miss it so it's fine for me but I know that is the big downfall for a lot of people. I use my Flex points across the week for the stuff I do miss like cheese and occasional sweet treats and that works fine. It might be interesting for you to try it for a week and see how it goes. I personally think it does teach you to eat healthier overall.

I've actually been dying to have someone to talk to about Core vs. Flex because I seem to be in the minority on Core so please feel free to drop me a line if you want to chat more or have any questions. You can find me on poonikins at yahoo dot co dot uk

Good luck! :-)

Chubby Chick said...

I know what you're sayin', girl. We started about the same time, and I've been struggling lately, too. You are not alone!

I think it's a good idea that you asked for the WW materials. You just need to take a deep breath and refocus. This is a little bump in the road, and you are definitely going to get over it! :)

Carleen said...

I think we all get 'in the funk' every once in awhile... just gotta put the past behind and move on...you've done SOO awesome on your journy...

Diet Coke and Zingers said...

You can do it! Stepping on the scale is the first and most difficult step and you've already done that! It's all downhill from here!

lifeshouldbestereo said...

The hard bit is admitting that you've 'half assed' it.. and getting on the scale and starting over. You've done that - well done! I'm right there with you. For one reason or another I've half asseed hit for most of the year. But I know you are very determined and you can pick this up where you left it.. for sure :)

Lauren said...

yeah, I'm there too. Now I'm trying to get back on plan, stop smoking and quit drinking all at the same time.