Sunday, January 20, 2008

weekend

So, things are just... there.

In limbo, so to speak.

Not fixed, pretty broken.... just there.

Taking things a day at a time.

Who knows.

Out of all of this though, I have overcome an obsticle of mine that I've struggled with my whole life--emotional eating. It's actually been the opposite for me... I've had a hard time eating anything at all. I know, I know... I need to eat. I'll have a little bit, then I feel like my stomach is in knots & doesn't want anything else. I did manage to eat a few fries & a cheeseburger on the way home from picking Mike up from his accident. It was McDonald's... it's not the best. But it's the first cheeseburger I've had from McD's in over 5 months. And I hadn't eaten anything else the entire day. I had a couple pieces of pizza today, but I need to force something else down. So I'm not eating much, and what I eat isn't healthy, but I'm not stuffing my face. And that's the big hurdle.

10 comments:

Lauren said...

I'm praying for you girl.

Holly said...

Hugs Teale!! Gosh.. I have so been there and I know how crappy it feels. You've been in my thoughts!

Scale Junkie said...

wish I could give you a great big hug!!

Lidian said...

Lots of hugs to you - I know what that feels like when you are so upset you can't get food down - that's when I know it's really truly bad for me...I know it's not much but I'm thinking about you and thankful that you are letting us know how you are doing. Please take care of yourself as much as you can. ((((Hugs))))

Twix said...

I am so speechless. Seriously!

I am glad he is alive. Thank you God, for that!

I think I understand you not being able to eat. I don't think I could eat either. Don't be so hard on yourself for what you are eating. You need to eat something and something is what you are eating. And that is a good thing.

Hang in there! I am praying for you. (((((Teale)))))

Chubby Chick said...

I hope everything works out soon, Teale. I really do. Just take care of yourself. I'll be thinking of you.

(((((Teale)))))

Hanlie said...

I'm sending you good thought and energy. Look after yourself, girl!

This is not going to fix itself overnight. And it will never be quite the same. But it doesn't mean that it can't be better in time.

((((Teale))))

lifeshouldbestereo said...

Teale, what can I say? I'm in shock! I have just read your last few posts all at once, and my heart was beating faster and faster as I read what has happened to you and your husband in the last few days. I truly hope you can smooth things out and re-discover each other all over again and give your relationship a brand new and improved start.
Thinking of you, and sending you lots of hugs!

Lori said...

Take some time for you during this hard, hard time.

Heather said...

and congrats to you for not turning to food! that takes a strong person and thats exactly what you are, very strong.