Thursday, May 6, 2010

Tonight's the night

I go to my first Weight Watchers meeting tonight. I'm trying to think of this as the beginning. Not think about every other time I've done weight watchers & how I've heard some of this stuff before. It's all new. I'm going to hear it tonight for the first time, absorb as much as possible.

I'm very nervous, but it's a good nervous. I'm scared about seeing what the number really says, scared about seeing people I know, scared of being the new girl. But those fears are nothing compared to the fears if I DON'T do this--the fear of never conceiving children because of my weight, the fear of not living a long, full life because of my weight, the fear of developing illnesses related to my weight. Those fears are so much greater & are what's going to push me to the meeting tonight. My little fears about the meeting are nothing compared to the big picture.

So, in a couple hours, I'll face the scale, face the meeting, face the changes. I can do this.


Becca said...

You CAN do it, cause you're probably already doing it right this moment. Good for you for going, for pushing yourself and for doing it for yourself.

You will do it.

= )

Anini said...

Starting fresh. Great Idea :) Looking forward to following your successful journey. You CAN do this.

Your newest follower, Anini

Fiona said...

Hi Teale, I love scrapbooking and card making and losing weight. Just found your blog so looking forward to following you on your journey. I find just the action of getting weighed every week is such a help. Good for you!

Laura said...

Good for you for going back to WW. When I first started there in January, I was so nervous. I didn't want to see what the scale said, and at the same time, I did. I had to know where I was at, because I wanted so badly to change myself.

You'll be okay. You're doing it for you, and your future children! What better reason is there?